hey guys..
so sorry for not updating my blog,well...
i wasn't in my best mood either.. i feel awful lately,someone i adore
suddenly change into a monster,change to a demon,devil? i don't know,she just don't
have the humanity towards me anymore...
well,life wasn't that good without her by my side.... it's all loneliness i feel in me,
everywhere i go,everything i do.. haih.. you know i used to think like what the picture says..
but well,sometimes it's not true..
can't believe love hurt that bad.. i love someone to the fullness and
all i get was a horrifying hurtful excruciating experience of life!! i did everything i could
everything she wants i give her,where she wanna go,i take her
but what do i get back in return? she start flirting with other guys? starts,acting cute with other guys
and treat me like an enemy..haih... wonder what did i actually owe her
in the past that now i suffer this way~
This is what my heart feel..
hopefully one day you'll actually understand..
anyways,am i really that unreasonable in your eyes?
am i that useless in your eyes?
can't you honestly tell me why you change? yes,i know people change but not
that fast right? as in like today she's normal,the next day she's a different person already~ haih..
i've tried everything,everything i can do to stop
caring about you,but i just can't,probably its in my DNA.. i don't know..
i cannot just don't care about somebody,that's not me..
come on~ sigh.. i wish one day you'll realise how important you are to me.. and also hopefully
one day you'll finally understand why i ask you not to go out alone?
you said your family's not rich,are you trying to bullshit me?
if your family is not rich,your dad can't even afford to send your brother to private school,
send your sis to london and next you.. come on,what you trying to indicate?
or you are just trying hard to be low profile? if you are,that's not working.. look at the way you shop?
look at the way you spend your dad's money...
well,anyways..it's not my concern..
if only you'll stop complaining about everything,
i can assure you your life would be as perfect as ever! ~MARK MY WORDS~
right now,learn how to not complain..
complaining is not going to bring you anywhere,it only make you worst..
for instant me,partly both of us argue is because you
never get satisfy of me,how i talk,how i eat,how i walk,
how i grow,how i look,how i wear..
every single there is to complain you'll definitely will do so,well that's not the way,you shouldn't do that..
it's so wrong! for once have i ever complain about you? the only thing i complain about you
is just your attitude and how you wear,if only you wear appropriately do you think
i'll complain? maybe you think it's fashion but i think it's stupid..
it's ugly!! honestly most of the time you over dress as in try too hard to dress up..
but anyways you won't listen to me either..
you kept on asking me to change,
asking me to go back how we used to be,how i used to be?
do you think i can? you change my life forever,what's behind me is all over,there's nothing left of me now,
it's all holes and piercings in my heart which i have left..
i've talk to many about out situation,some say maybe it's because you are going to london,
well,then i reply by saying if that's the case you don't have to treat me like a dirt
either unless you are planning to find someone else over there?
haih,dun be so naive,sometimes people say you are pretty in actual fact they don't really mean it aight?
wake up!! i'm not critising,just stating out the facts...
i'm not saying you're not pretty to me you are,yes indeed you are~
guess that's enough of crap already,enough.. life's like this
like you said"shit happens at times" guess i'll just have to bare with it..
although i hate seeing you being physically close to a guy but well,if that's what you want,
i'll respect it.. anyways.. i've gotta go,i don't want to shed tears
anymore... alright.. sorry all my readers,
i'm just trying to let my frustration out.. so sorry.. forgive me yeah!
have a happy life ahead and my only one,think for yourself,what you really want in life..
take good care! have a nice and pleasant day ahead folks! ^O^